I made a statement on Facebook recently that I was no longer going to live a half life. It was my declaration to the "world" that I am no longer going to play small. I was asked shortly after what did I mean by this statement? Well here is a further explanation of what I meant and how I am going to try to live.
Fearless Fox Friday!
When I hear the term half life I geekily think of the moment in the Harry Potter movie where one character explains the effects of drinking unicorn blood, My life is much less dramatic but it's a visual for me. I feel like I live a life of indecision and waiting. I feel like I am constantly holding my breath and my body is always on high alert. I'm powerless to make changes or make my life the way I want it. That I merely exist to fulfill someone else's desires or expectations for my life.
Now I have made steps toward changing this about myself. I feel like I have challenged a lot of labels and untruths that I have told myself for a long time. Maybe lies that I have held onto for my whole life. I have taken steps to shine and show who I am. I have walked away from small incapable Kelly and have tried to embrace powerful capable starlet Kelly. Some days are easier than others.
Back to my statement. I am vowing to live a conscious, mindful life. One of choice and passion and purpose. One without compromise to myself. One that makes me proud of myself and is determined by me and not others. A commitment to myself. Action on the things I am prompted to do. A life of getting up and doing. No more seeing things as impossible. Finding a way to make all of it happen, even if by myself. Learning the things I need to know to move forward where I haven't been able to. Continuing to challenge the lies of my fear and past. Loving myself more than ever before!
It won't be easy, but I'm kind of tired of easy. My anxiety is coming up already. I can do this. I am capable. I am strong.
If my journey sounds similar to you or resonates with you? Email me and we can do this together.
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